NO Carbs after 5pm - I am going to go insane

A few weeks ago, I went to Minneapolis to do an talk show about my documentary film. It was a public access show and they give you your tape when you leave. I sat is horror as I watched the footage. I am tall, 6'5" and weight - 1230 pounds - ok maybe not that much, but let's just say I am fat - obese even. As I am watching the footage, I notice I look like a bald duck. I have big lips that protrude from my face. Almost Angelina Like. And I am nodding, repetatively. Very much like a duck.

I am an active listener. I also have been. I am the kind of person that would watch Days of Our lives in College and nod or scream at the television - giving the characters my advice as they would get buried alive or turn in Satan.

So, I realized in watching myself on this television interview program, that somehow without my knowledge, I have turned into a fat, bald duck. I don't know exactly when it happened, but slowly over the course of 5 years I have put on more weight that I would care to admit.

Working my crappy day job for 4 years didn't help matters. I would show up to this nasty ugly job and work from 9-9:30am to 8-9 at night. Now that may not sound like much, but when you hate your boss, and your job, and the company you work for - it's torture.

So I am making a change, I know - I have sad this many many times before, but I am doing. I just quit smoking. And I sure as hell am not going to up even more weight on from that. So I made the change, I went to the gym. It's a nice gym, It's has a pool and is in an old hotel ballroom. I go in the morning, before i go to my office (where my production company is located). I am looking at this like it's my job. Hard crappy work that I don't want to do - but if want to get what i want - I have to.

My Birthday

Ok - Today is my birthday - and this was the song i used to play every year!!

Link: http://www.captainzoom.com/jasonlong.mp3

The Lady in Purple

There's a little old woman in a purple beret
Who walks down the street she knows the right way.
With a dingy old sack and her ripped grocery bag
this little old woman to some is a hag.
But late in the evening when the summer sun sets
the little old woman surprises her pets
The four hundred pigeons and the families of squirrel
get a present each day from my purply girl.
A handful of peanuts and a loaf of old bread
a gift of great love from her heart not her head.
This special routine, it happens each day.
A summer sun santa without her snow sleigh.

Cool/Fun video of Al Gore

If I Told the Truth: I hate the dentist

Ok - here is something really gross - my sister-in-law had to have a root canal.....

The April Cold

I have been sick all week with a horrible cold. AAAHHHH NO FUN!!

Someone once told me that getting sick means that your body needed a rest. And we have been really busy lately. Working on the fundraising trailers for the film has been really interesting. It is difficult trying to separate myself from the project - trying to maintain some sense of objectivity - and still being close to subject. I have a stack of movies I need to review for the Digital Bits. They have been sitting on my shelf for the last week. We have been swamped trying to get this business off the ground.

I have to say that it is nice being busy with projects that I care about - I have finally made it over the first hurdle.

Something I have learned this week - it's really important to surround yourself with people who believe in you - it's even more important to surround yourself with people that will help you grow as an artist. I feel really good about the people in my circle - I feel that they are pushing me in important ways. I don't feel bad about my abilities - I am excited at the possibility of growth.

I hope my cough goes away soon....

The path is there
for me to see

I know just where
its up to me

I know can walk
with both my feet

I will not balk
or skip a beat

slow and steady
that is the course

I know I'm ready
just use the force........... he he he

If I Told the Truth: Knitting is my therapy

It's true - I have been knitting now for almost a year and I love it. It's fun - it's a great thing to do when I want to keep my mouth shut at large group functions. (i.e. - I am naturally a person who shares far to many of his opinions at large gatherings - knitting is saving me from total embarressment - I know can shut my mouth)!!!

I love this picture!!